Not Meant For This World

Why am I still here
There's nothing left but pain and fear
I can't conform to society
What they want is just not me
Anxiety rules everything I do
Just because I'm not like you
Can't hold a friend and can't hold a job
I'd rather be a fucking slob than a fucking snob
I drink too much, I smoke too much, I eat too many pills
I do things people say are crazy just to feel the thrills
I am just a monster in other people's eyes
At least my life is not based on a pack of lies
You can all suck my dick if you think I'm gonna change
I am perfectly happy being deranged

I am not meant for this world
It doesn't want me here
My brain has become completely unfurled
Shifted into fifth gear
The world wants me in first
I cannot downshift
I have a constant thirst
I don't need your bullshit

I don't dress the way you do so I must be strange
I don't react the way you do so I must be deranged
My life is one big hodgepodge of uncontrollable thoughts
All your stagnant repetitive ideas will cause your brain to rot
Heaven and Hell constantly fight inside my brain
Both sides want me, how many of you can say the same
The physical world doesn't want me and it's obvious
I swear I get criticized every time I take a piss
Destined to be poor because I don't have connections
When I look into a mirror, I look too muck like you in my reflection
I am far from normal in my mind
Searching for something I can't find
Would acceptance make me happy
Right now it just makes me feel sappy

I am not meant for this world
And I don't give a fuck
All I have is my girl
And we're both feeling stuck
All we really want is an opportunity
To live the way we want to live
A way for this to be

Fuck society and all it's fucking rules
One day you will figure out you are all the fools