Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Making Ends Meet With Mental Illness

Gotta get moving
Gotta mow another yard
Holding a real job
Is just too fucking hard
Can't write for shit
That's why these lyrics suck
So I gotta find another way
To make a quick buck
I'm running out of cigarettes
I'm running out of beer
I'm running out of reasons
To keep existing here
I didn't choose to be this way
Don't wanna be depressed
But everything I try to do
Turns into a mess

I need a new way to survive
I need something to keep me alive
I need a life where I can be
Happy

Another day, another dollar
Someone shoot me now
I've always known the what
But still can't fucking learn the how
I guess I don't belong here
This world is not for me
I just hurt so fucking bad
Physically and mentally
No one seems to understand
I just can't fucking do it
Still, I keep searching for a way
That allows me to get through it
Searching for a way
For me to carry on
At this point, I fear
All hope is gone

Where is my new way to survive
Where is my way to stay alive
I feel like I'll never be
Happy

1 comment:

  1. Justin your.right this place is not.meant for.you ,this world is just the resting place before your eternal life....but this is the place where we earn all of.our rewards for our heavenly lives...keep your head up in looking and thinking of the negative aspects you will continue to see the negative, placing those positive thoughts and views will allow us to begin seeing more positive than we have ever imagined!! You got this start with your thoughts and as corny as it may sound you self talk is of the utmost importance, you got this man I know you do. Your greatly loved and very very smart..you ha e a whole lot more positive aspects in your life than you do the negative....just for.one day try. Try and only allow positive thoughts of your life and yourself....give it a shot...if u do.find.yourself letting a negative thought ski through your mind or your.lips instantly replace it with a positive one....if u really wanna be happy you will be willing to try anything!! Good luck

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