I'm Whining

Why am I still here?
Nothing ever goes my way
Every day another fear
Too much that I want to say
They'd lock me up if I spoke my mind
And throw away the key
I try my best to be kind
But no one does the same for me
So many fucking problems
Can't dig my way out
I wish I had a way to solve them
Wish I didn't have this doubt

If I say "why me?" then I guess I'm whining
I just want a day where the sun is shining
A day without physical and mental pain
And all I ever hear is "you're insane"

Why do my dreams always die?
I never have a choice
I used to have a sparkle in my eye
I used to have a voice
Now I sit here hopeless
Wishing there was a way
You think I'm whining because I wrote this
As I sit here and decay
My mind has fractured
It's gone beyond the stars
I'm tired of being an actor
The act has gone too far

Now I'm saying "why me?" so I guess I'm whining
The forecast doesn't see the sun shining
Right now I'm in physical and mental pain
You're motherfucking right, I'm insane