Unsaved

Why am I still here when this life only tortures me
No fucking idea of what I'm supposed to be
Where's my god damn miracle, did someone else get it
How much longer do I have to deal with all this bullshit
I don't wanna be rich, I just want to survive
That seems more impossible the longer I'm alive
Why do I keep writing when nobody really reads
Why do I patch up my cuts every time they bleed
Not self inflicted anymore, at least the physical kind
Half of the emotional ones are caused by my own mind
I am stuck in a rut and I'm looking for a way out
Nobody seems to hear me even when I scream and shout
If god exists he hates me and everything I stand for
I just want to be myself and nothing more
Less would be dilution, I prefer one hundred proof
From the tattoos on my body to my last rotten tooth

I am the unsaved
Sitting in my misery
All my life I gave
I think it's time that I receive
Just another day
Trying to dig out of this hole
Just another day
Trying to save my own soul

Here we go again with another beer in hand
They say I don't think like them so I can't be a man
Maybe my brain operates on a higher level
Maybe I am not a man, akin to the devil
If my thoughts poured out of my head no one would want me
My life has been built on sin, it constantly haunts me
Like the ghosts I've always searched for are right in my face
Keeping me from finding my perfect place
I search and I search, but, to no avail
I'm tired of being just a drop in the pail
I wanna fill the bucket like a torrential downpour
So fucking tired of wondering what I'm here for
I need an answer, and I need it really quick
I'm sick of being tired and I'm tired of being sick
I've gotta find a purpose and find it really soon
The unsaved needs saving so my life can be in tune