Angel On Earth

She only wants what's best for me
What's best for me is her
I've never had a love like this
Of that I'm sure
I try my hardest
To do what's right
Sometimes I fuck up
But I hate it when we fight

An angel on earth
My life is what she's worth
Without her my life would be worse
Without her my life would be cursed

She's my partner for life
There will never be another
Partners through it all
Leaning on each other
Through the good and bad
And everything in between
She's my reason for living
She is my queen

An angel on earth
My life is what she's worth
Without her my life would be worse
Without her my life would be cursed

Crying Over Ghosts

I've lost a lot of people in my life

I wish I could talk to all of them

For just one more night

To see how things have been

Let them know I miss them

Every single day

I wish that I could kiss them

My day would be made

Ask them what it's like

On the other side

Just so I can see

If the holy books all lied

I'm crying over ghosts

I just want to see them

I'm crying over ghosts

Sometimes I want to be them

I'm crying for my life

Sometimes I want to end it

I'm crying for my life

I wish that I could mend it

Stuck In A Funk

Always in this funk
I feel like my souls has sunk
Into a hell I can't escape
Sometimes I feel like it's too late
To feel happiness in this life
Like I'm stuck in an endless night
With no way out
No mater how hard I scream and shout
I'm at the end of my rope
And all I need is a way to cope
A periscope to reach through the water
Every day the water gets hotter
Wish I could swim to the surface
And one day be close to perfect
Right now I'm the opposite
And getting sick of all this shit.

Something has got to give
There's gotta be a way that I can get better
Somebody give me a sign
So I can finally make it to sunny weather
I don't know what to do
To get out of this funk I'm in
I feel like giving up
Because it all just repeats again

My eyes are open wide
There's nowhere left for me to hide
I'm stuck out in the open
Not even sure how I am coping
Pelted by the freezing rain
It's not outside, it's in my brain
The pain's too much to bare
Life definitely isn't fair
I struggle just to breathe
Not even sure what I believe
Is heaven and hell real
If they're not then what's the deal
Is earth just purgatory
I'm stuck here forever sorry
Pain is just my way of life
Should I just end it with a knife

Something has got to give
There's gotta be a way that I can get better
Somebody give me a sign
So I can finally make it to sunny weather
I don't know what to do
To get out of this funk I'm in
I feel like giving up
Because it all just repeats again

Holes In Souls

It always seems like something's missing
From my hollow life
And I appreciate the kissing
But there's a hole inside
I'm looking for the thing to fill it
The missing fucking piece
Something has to fit
So I can be me

I know I'm not the only one
Searching for something that I find fun
Something to warm up this cold
We need to fill the holes in souls

Please don't take this the wrong way
I love a lot of people
But I feel like I'm in decay
Teetering on evil
Something has to fit
Inside this empty space
Fill in this empty pit
Bring a smile to my face

I can't be the only one
Searching for my sun
Something that I can hold
Before I get too old

I know I'm not the only one
Searching for something that I find fun
Something to warm up this cold
We need to fill the holes in souls

Wake Up

Another day of disappointment
How can I go on
I wish there was an ointment
To soothe what all goes wrong
Looking in the mirror
I don't like what I see
Wish I could make it clearer
I wish I wasn't me
Depression gets the best of me
Whenever I'm not manic
Riddled with anxiety
Always in a panic

Wish I could wake up someone else
I really don't like myself
I wish I could wake up not so fucking sad
Wake up not feeling this fucking bad

Another night of disappointment
Why should I go out
Get caught up in all the noises
I don't want to shout
Looking in the mirror
Who the fuck am I
Nothing's getting clearer
Time just passes by
Depression wins again
I'm way beyond manic
Anxiety's my only friend
I'm still in a panic

Wish I could wake up somewhere else
I don't want to be myself
I wish I could wake up not feeling insane
Wake up not in so much fucking pain

Numb To It

The pain tried to return today
But I was able to keep it away
Despite what I am seeing
Miserable human beings
Everywhere  I look there's pain
Yet I remain halfway sane
I guess I'm just used to it
From all the times I've gone through it
I have become numb to it

People laugh and people cry
Most of the time I wonder why
I wonder what makes them tick
Maybe because my brain is sick
I don't think like other people
We could never be as equals
Life is just a book of shit
I sit here and thumb through it
I have become numb to it

Stumbling Through Life

I'm chemically enhanced over half of the time
Looking for my home in a state of mind
Hoping I can find more of my kind
While I stumble through this thing we call life

I can't be a slave to a machine
Nobody else seems to get what I mean
Nobody else has seen the things I've seen
I'm not even sure if I'm alright

I can't seem to kill the thoughts in my head
Sometimes they make me wish I was dead
I need a better solution instead
One that actually turns out my way

The medicine isn't strong enough
But it props me up like a broken crutch
It really doesn't help that much
I don't know what to say

I want to live, not just exist
I want to live the things I've missed
I'm so sick of the what ifs
I don't know what to do

Somebody help to lift me up
Somebody help me feel the love
I know that I am capable of
I put my faith in you